Dethroning a Queen

I come from a long line of beekeepers. I love the little gals. I just don't like them buzzing near my ears. So I am always reluctant to "go through the bees" when I am asked.

Recently, I said yes. Be Brave Be 40. You know?

I donned my suit.

I held the box with the new queen.

I tried to stay calm despite the buzz bys.

I survived. The old queen - not so much.

(Actually, the new queen was replaced too. She wasn't doing too much.)

Ironically, the same day I went with dad to replace the queen, there was a terrible accident nearby involving a tractor trailer full of beehives. It broke my heart because so many were lost.

 I appreciate these little workers. Delicate and so vital to our ecology and agriculture. They need to be protected and cared for and sometimes that requires the dethroning of a Queen and maybe a better truck driver...
 

 

Sunday Projects

On a Sunday afternoon, I find it quite blissful to craft. I will throw caution to the win and not worry about dishes or picking up. 

As luck would have it Rosie girl was down for a good nap. That called for Play-dough for the the boy and felt flowers for the mom. That was the plan. That was what we did we made a huge mess between the 2 of us. Of course I was left to clean up the bulk of it.

 

 The results were worth it though!

Mother's Day Project

                                                         

I think we call this a Pinterest Win. On Mother's Day we went to Lowe's and picked up

terracotta pots and potting soil. Hubby assembled.

I just needed to figure out what flowers to put in there. A couple days later, I went out looking for flowers and this is the final project.

I liked the stacked look so much I did this variation on a theme with my herbs... I am pleased with the outcome. Though, I do need to stay on top of keeping them watered.

The Lost Figs

The cries could be heard around town. It looked as though all the figs trees had not survived this cruel and cold winter. There was talk of just digging them up.

I had to have a look for myself when I was in town. It looks like time and a little more warmth is what they needed. Little buds of green were emerging. What a relief. Though many branches were lost. There is still hope of figs this summer. We can hope to "taste and see that the Lord is good".... good to the fig. Good to those that love this tasty morsel.

The Raisin

So I noticed as I was getting in the car that there was an ant trying to carry a raisin. Go figure.

Call it faith.

Call it perseverance.

Go ant, haul that thing.

Show us how to move mountains.

Show us how to do what looks impossible.
 

Makes me think of this wise Proverb...

Proverbs 6:6
Go to the ant, you sluggard; consider its ways and be wise! 

A Lovely Day Off

"What's a weekend?" 

 

I wonder that myself. Violet has a life of leisure. She probably had someone else nurse her babies too. I on the other hand... Don't get much time to myself. I am always on call and I am frequently being called. Many times and simultaneously. It can be draining.

Thanks to my mom, I got to go to the Downton Abbey display going on at Winterthur without my sweet children. The weekend prior we all went. The children were not enthused and I took my little raisin eating tyrant out and had a little pity party because I had been looking forward to seeing this and I could not get a good look at anything.

So to have the chance to go back and read everything and examine the details was so nice.

It was also a lovely day to walk and enjoy the grounds the weather was perfect and I sat for some time watching other people's kids feed the koi fish and I didn't have to worry about them falling in- like I would have if my kids were there.

I enjoyed watching others enjoy themselves. I walked down to one of my favorite spots. A spot that beacons to a kind of girl who likes to walk on rocks that have water coursing near it - even if it is only a little trickle.

It didn't matter to me that I didn't have on appropriate shoes.

I made the most of the day. I soaked in the sun. I revealed in the breeze.

I enjoyed my break away so I could recharge my weary self.

Earn This

In honor of D-Day.

Least we forget.

Many men did "Earn It" and continue to earn it until the end.  Like the one who refused to meet Obama while at the Normandy Memorial . Or the one who snuck out of his nursing home to go to the memorial. Or the one who parachuted into the same field he did 70 years ago. These are the men of the Greatest Generation.

I just can't help but wonder what the world will be like when the Greatest Generation are all back together again.

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Memorials

Little Boy and I were walking down the street while visiting my parents.  It was the Eve of Memorial Day weekend, which means in my hometown the street names change to honor the fallen soldiers from the town. So I pointed out to him that this week, this is "Sgt. George Snyder St" because his aunt and uncle lived nearby. (They try to pick the street closest to their home or a relative's home)

I explained to him that Pop-pop John and George knew each other when they were young boys and that George died in a war and that Pop-John went on to have kids and grand kids and live a good life to honor his friends who didn't make it home. Now Pop-pop John and George are back together with Jesus and the angels in Heaven.

Of course the whole time I am misty-eyed and struggling to speak but I carried on because that is what Grandpop would want. He would want me to teach Little Boy in the simplest of terms. Then, every year as we encounter Memorial Day, go over it all again with him so that the knowledge, gravity and reverence for these lost men and now the departing great-grandpops will plant itself deep in his heart.

That is the kind of heart I want for him. To remember the sacrifices and legacies of those who went before him so they won't be forgotten.

Why I Love Being Your Mother - 2014

Last year, in honor of Mother's Day, I reflected on Why I love being a mother to Walter & Rose....

I did it again this year.
 

walter

You just typed that all on your own. You are so smart and learning so much. I am so proud that you know almost all your letters, can count, know colors and shapes. You are learning to share pretty nicely too. You like to remind me all the time that you are a "good helper" and you are a good helper.

You say the funniest things. Lately, "in the warm spring I'll do xyz...."  "In the warm spring, can we do abc....?" "In the warm spring, I did _____." You are all about the "warm spring" and it is pretty funny to me. I guess after the longest winter and the coldest spring -ever in your life and maybe mine too- the warm spring is something that seems a little bit down the road.

So here it is Mother's Day and the warm spring is sort of here. In a little while,  we will clean out the sandbox and put in fresh sand for the warm spring and the hot summer. You will probably say, today, a dozen times or more, "What choo said mom?" You say this all the time and I am really beginning to wonder if I should have your ears checked again. But Dad and I chuckle many times to hear you say this, even funnier is the response we get when we try to correct you.   

We have spent the school year going through the ABCs and Bible stories and I am proud of what you have absorbed. You say you want to have Jesus in your heart. We listen to Christian music during the day and I often hear you singing along. This melts my heart.

You are at times challenging as you learn self control and choosing to make the right decisions. When I look at your handsome face, bright eyes, happy smile and loving heart, potty training, temper tantrums, refusing to try new foods are outshined. You are a snuggler. You play hard. You play well with your trucks, trains, computer games, and sandbox. You are all boy. I am happy that you are my boy.

Rosie,
My little girl. Still a baby in so many ways and still on the verge of being 2 in so many ways. You want to do things yourself. You know stuff. I say go get something you go get it. If I say get off the coffee table or you will go to your crib you get it. I am astounded by what you know. You have become a little word factory. "Come baack Wawa!" "go daddy"  "milk" "Up/& down"
Anything with buttons you pick up and hold to your ear like a veteran phone talker,  say "Hallo" bark out some commands and then "ga-bye".

You are a dancer and a singer. You can play in your crib and talk to Violet and I think you are now singing along with her. You give great hugs and kisses but not every time you are asked. I love to sing to you about being the "sweetest Rose that grows" and as I get ready to put you to bed I know you are ready when you say "good night" and pretty much hurl yourself into the the crib. 

You crack me up when you blow a raspberry on my belly. You give me great joy when I hold out my arms and you run to me and give me a hug. I love that you play with cars & trucks, while wearing a tutu. As much as it drives me crazy to find shoes all over the house, I love that you are playing dress-up with my shoes.

You babies are the joy of my heart. Its not always easy, but you are always worth it.

Love,
Mom mom

30 Minutes Left

On December 29, 2013 I drafted:

"There are 30 minutes left of Breaking Bad - Thank God - What a show.

What can I say. Good writing. Bad people.

Walter White aka Heisenburg is "Everyman" One normal average guy becomes an emotionless killer and thinks nothing of it.

No thought of the destruction he brings."  Thank God not "everyman" forsakes humanity for personal greed.

There was 20 minutes left and I said to my husband, "There is no way they can wrap this up in 20 minutes!" Thank God for google... Oh look at that there is still another season of 8 shows."

So we weren't done. AHHHHHH
 We had to wait to see the end. And what an end. I was satisfied though. 

I am glad it is done. I don't like seeing the deterioration of a soul on TV or in reality.

The Real Rahab

Thoughts from Bible Study.

So I really love the story of Rahab and of all the women in the Bible she is the one I am most interested in meeting someday. She was a prostitute. I can imagine that she was shrewd and street smart. She knew what was true and what was just a cheesy line. So what I wonder about her is what did her family think of her line of work? Was it a cultural norm? Or where they just a little embarrassed by her occupation? Had she been cut off? Was her line of work honored in her culture?

She ended up being a key player in God's grand design. She was the woman who saved Joshua from the kings men as she lowered them out a window and down a wall. How many times had she done that little trick? It was the right thing for her to do and she knew it. Obviously, she saw something in these men that was different than all the others. She probably saw that the God they worshiped was no joke. She may have thought, "He is the real deal I want to be apart of that plan."

She negotiated safety for her family:
“Now then, please swear to me by the Lord that you will show kindness to my family, because I have shown kindness to you. Give me a sure sign that you will spare the lives of my father and mother, my brothers and sisters, and all who belong to them—and that you will save us from death.” Joshua 2: 12-13

Deal making may have been a particular skill in her line of work. Did her family appreciate this deal? Was this a challenge for her to ask? Were they surprised that she thought enough about them to try and save them? Did they deserve to be saved?

God obviously saw something in her. She evidently gave up her line of work and settled down with an Israelite because she became a famous great great great ... grandmother to the baby - Jesus.

I like a God who takes a prostitute and makes her a heroine and a great...grand mother of the Savior.

Esther - Conformist?

Esther became queen of Persia. I think we all know that. There are all kinds of profiles and perceptions of who Esther was. Here is what I always assumed. I assumed Esther was a lot like me. A good "Christian/Israelite" girl. Appalled at the idea of spending the night with an uncircumcised pagan, forced against her will to become apart of the king's harem -if she didn't get chosen. I always just assumed she was not ok with anything that was happening to her.

Then, it occurred to me that maybe I was all wrong. Maybe she was excited to be picked. Maybe she wasn't a good Israelite girl. Maybe she was just like all the other Israelites of the day and neighborhood who were being assimilated into the Persian culture. Retaining some old Mosaic ways and picking up some pagan practices for good measure and to fit in.

Maybe she was just a silly girl all caught up in the idea of pretty dresses, servants and the possibility of being Queen whatever it took. Maybe she had a weak spiritual constitution like a lot of young people.

I don't know but I liked the idea of seeing her from this different perspective.

If Esther was more of an assimilated teen rather than and hard core Israelite like I always imagined, then God did more than rescue his people through Esther going to the King. He may have also rescued her from a life of mediocrity. Helping her to embrace her heritage and the beliefs of her people and forsaking the assimilation of the Persian culture.

It just goes to show you that you can read the same old stories over and over again and you may think there is nothing new to learn. Then, you happen upon some new perspective that makes you think a little differently. It just shakes things up a little. In the end, Esther did shake things up.

  

Ice Cream You Scream...

...we all scream for ice cream.

In honor of all the polar vortexes, I thought I would post my ice cream quilt.

I came to the conclusion, that I no longer can make a quilt by hand and actually get it done in a timely manner.  Too much to do and too many curious little fingers.

So I discovered this special iron on paper, that lets you can make an applique quilt simply by ironing the fabric. You don't have to sew a stitch!

I love it. I had it in my mind that I wanted to do this ice cream quilt for the summer and I knew I would never be able to get this done. I think for the time being this is the way for me to go. I liked doing it whereas the quilts I made on the sewing machine recently worked up quick but ugh I just don't like machine sewing!

Granted it is not finished, but it was done enough to enjoy all summer. One of these days, I may actually finish it.

Watermarks on a Songbird

My coffee table. Exactly what I wanted. Exactly when I hoped for it. $15 at a yardsale. 

It is our homeschooling table -when baby sister is sleeping. It is the place I keep putting books on only to have them pushed off by a little girl who wants to climb on it. It is the place a little boy keeps sitting on, only to hear "Don't sit on my coffee table." I like my table. So when someone, who shall remain nameless, left hot tea on it -more than once- there were glaring watermarks on it. They kept taunting me.

So I employed a little trick a wood craftsman told me a few years back when I left a watermark on the table. I ironed it away. I placed a cloth on the table, turned off the steam and carefully ironed the watermark away. It worked! "Thank you Jesus" my table was restored. It is the small things that make me happy. 

All the while, my little songbird could be heard singing (this song below) as I was ironing away cloudy watermarks.

We have been listening to K-LOVE for the last few months. The uplifting Christian music has made a dramatic difference in our day. I feel better listening to Christ centered music but the fact that my babies are having truth, wisdom and love for Jesus marked into their souls, is priceless to me. He knows the songs. He can sing along. He likes it when he recognizes a song from the radio is sung at church. He asks me to sing the song with him.

So you see, happiness is getting watermarks out of the coffee table with an iron.
But deep joy is hearing your son sing while he plays. He may not know all that he is singing about but I pray it soaks deep into his soul. Much deeper than those watermarks on my coffee table. 

A Fabulous Forty Project: Light Art

I have been wanting to do this Pinterest project for over a year. I have had the supplies for over a year. For months, I have been looking at that blank canvas and wondering 2 things: when will I find time to do this and will it look as cute as the "pin"?

There has definitely been this hesitation to start it because I just didn't want one of those Pinterest Pin Fails. I really wanted it to look cute so as long as I didn't start it I couldn't fail it.

But that is not the 40 year old way - or at least it shouldn't be. So you can call this my first Fabulous Forty Event (Event for lack of a better word.)

One day this January, I just decided to do it. Baby Girl was sleeping, Little Boy was watching a show and I just started poking holes in the canvas with a meat thermometer.

In the end, it is not perfect but it turned out much better than the fail I feared! I was pleased and I love the extra light. It has a nice festive and happy feel. I need that during these arctic vortexes that keep hitting us.

I guess I just figured putting off the project was bothering more than fearing the results. I guess that is a good lesson for just about anything.

Putting stuff off out of fear keeps you from possible success.
That sounds like something a 40 year old would say.

Rosie's Birthday Cake

It is hard to believe my baby girl is 17 months today! She is a piece of work. She loves climbing on stuff, meowing like a kitty, wooting like an owl and is happy to sit on her brother's bed and look at books. Oh, and she roars like a dinosaur.

In honor of this 17 month milestone, I am sharing photos from her birthday. I really wanted to make a cake that looked like this.

Unfortunately, this novice cake decorator couldn't pull it off. In the end, I was happy with the way they turned out. It was reminiscent of a drippy castle down at the shore. I made a large cake for the family and a smaller one - like a giant cupcake for her.

I went with the Fabiani favorite "Can't Fail Chocolate Cake" with "Fluffy White Icing" died pink with a little strawberry jam. Yum! It was super hot and humid - a vast different kind of weather than what we are experiencing this week!

Downtown Dinners 1 & 2

We are doing Downton Abbey Dinner Night again. Pulling out the china dishing up something yummy, which really seems pretty hard lately because I feel like I have lost my cooking edge. Nothing satisfies me or comes out right. Mrs.Patmore I am not! As I was thinking about it though, it is what she gets paid for and she has all day to put it together. I don't. Maybe if facebook disappeared I could at least get things started earlier...

Episode 1 comprised of lamb shoulder chops. Very yummy. Very little meat. Rosie that little carnivore wanted more and more.... I made fancy twice cooked potato puffs. They were more pretty than tasty.



Episode 2 consisted of salmon cakes. These were the best batch I have made in a while. It might be that I finally have Old Bay and I also used Ritz crackers instead of breadcrumbs. I am using panko bread crumbs for the outside coating and they give them a really great crunch! With a side of overcooked green beans and pasta with garlic, olive oil, olives and spinach.

My One Word

New Years Resolution Time has come and gone. I fine with that. I refused to be guilted into losing my baby muffin top or reading more books or getting my son to eat veggies. Its just too much pressure. Too much failure.  Last year, I heard about the One Word idea for starting of a new year. Pick one word you want to focus on. Last year, my one word was Consistency . Round about spring looking at sign over my sink that said "Consistency" just wasn't working for me.

I just wasn't succeeding - enough. So I changed my word. The word that came to me was "Lighthearted" so while I was at the sink washing dishes I thought to myself "Be Lighthearted." I am still am saying that to myself because I need the reminder! Throughout the day, I am often reminded at just how unlighthearted I am.

So when I was thinking about my One Word for 2014 I wanted one that felt more uplifting and less convicting. I was outside and noticed the sun rays shining like a spotlight through the clouds. Shine. Seek. Either one will work nicely.

I decided to go with Seek. Seek to be more lighthearted. Seek to do things more efficiently. Seek to play more and yell less. So, I printed out a bunch of verse about seeking. "Seek first the kingdom...."

Seeking will no doubt lead to Shining something I want to do for my children. Shine the love of Jesus so they will love Jesus someday because they saw Him in me.

So my One Word is just a little more.

Seek to Shine. I like it. It works for me, sure as heck sounds better than "consistency"

My Audience

Sometimes I wonder why I bother. I can't seem to find the time and I am often reminded that "no one reads it anyway."  Except for Carrie and Brandy! I will never be a household name kind of writer like I once -kind of- hoped for. I am ok with that.

As my little one sings along to Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood or tries to climb on furniture they shouldn't be I realize why I write. I blog for them as much as I do for myself. I want to write. I want to have an avenue to process and share. I also want to leave my kids a history, my recorded journey with God and the little things they do and how it intercepts with my growing as a person and a parent. I want them to have something that will lead them to Jesus. So that is the best reason to continue and to persevere and find the time -for them. You too Brandy and Carrie!

It is refreshing to have a targeted audience in mind.

Fabulous 40

a little wet out, wearing my modcloth.com dress that hubby picked out for me.

So I am 40 now. To be sure, 40 was much better than 30. When I was 30, I was still living with my parents, I hated my job and I had something akin to a nervous breakdown shortly before or after the big 3-0. Not a good time.

I had had it in my mind that I would just keep being 39. The closer December came the more I thought 40 is no big deal. I don't look 40. Some days I don't even feel 40. Young children have a way of making you feel both old & fatigued but they also help you blend right in with those young moms who have kids the same ages but who have been driving a full 10 years less! We are in the same season of life even if age wise I am more summer and they are more spring! Or however that works out.

I contemplated what to do. I wanted it to be memorable -40 should be. However, crashing a wedding where they were serving roast leg of lamb and playing Come on Eileen or that timeless song by House of Pain Jump Around didn't seem very realistic. I thought about going ice skating. We decided I better not start a new decade off with a broken tailbone or something like that. So we went to one of  my favorite spots - Ithan Creek Park. This is the park I use to go to after work, where I would pray for a husband and children. It is also the same place where my husband proposed and where we had wedding pictures taken. Each of my kids have been there with me -separately though. So it only seemed fitting that I should bring my family to the place where I often prayed for them.  It was a little wet but we enjoyed walking the trail and taking pictures. It was a fabulous way to kick off a new decade.

I am planning to look for other fabulous things to do over the year to mark this new decade. I don't know what they are yet but I have some ideas... I haven't completely ruled out ice skating for one...