So Friday I got into a little bit of trouble. For months now we have been under construction and watching from the lunch/work room. I have been wanting to climb through the window into the construction zone since there was a floor installed! So Friday we did it. (I'll protect my accomplice's name;-) We tromped through the window as we took a look-see at the drywallers, sprinkler installers and HVAC people. When we were done, we came back to the window and it was closed. We banged on it till someone came to let us in. Someone wasn't pleased. Not only had we tracked in drywall dust but we were a liability. Yeah, I know not too smart.
I have always been a rule follower. I can only remember a few times in grammar school when I knowingly did something wrong. Invariably I got caught and I hated the feeling I being caught. I felt like that Friday- sheepish. Although, I am glad I got the urge to climb through the window out of my system! I was remembering an old boyfriend who took me hiking at Bushkill Falls -many years ago- he wanted to go off the trail. I would have no parts of it because their rule was "Stay on the Trail." He thought I was a killjoy. Perhaps.
Rules are there for a reason, common sense said I shouldn't climb through the window into a construction zone. I did and I got caught. Listening to our common sense is just as important as listening to the still that small voice speak. If we use our common sense then it isn't necessarily necessary for the Holy Spirit to speak.
Tonight the Holy Spirit did speak, he said, "Go see cousin Pat." I know better than to argue with him when he says stuff like this, I argued anyway. I tried to fain "I am too tired" or "maybe she doesn't want guests at this hour." I was even straightforward with the Holy Spirit when I said, "I just don't want to!" Naaa none of those excuses would eliminate the nudge to go. It was the right thing to do. She is sick and lonely and a visit is the least I could do... (I should probably be happy that the Holy Spirit choose to speak to me.)
Its probably worse to disobey the Holy Spirit's urging than to get caught covered in drywall dust outside of a window you shouldn't have gone through...
Even for a notorious rule follower like me, I find that I still have a long way to go before I come close always do the right thing or using common sense!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Hotenough.com
I've just been reading on cnn.com Dating site asks 'are you hot enough?
Hotenough.com ... how about justnormal.com ?
This might be why the world is amuck... or more likely just a symptom of a world in a muck.
The article says:
"HotEnough.org is for "fit, good-looking" people. Prospective members must submit pictures and must be rated an 8 or higher by people already in the club." "The 33-year-old said he and his partner, Sean Cohen, created the site after concluding that Internet dating sites attract a lot of brave and desperate people but not particularly attractive ones." "Candidates must send in three pictures, including one full-body shot. Active members rate the pictures online without knowing anything else about the people in them." "People can say that the site is shallow, they can say it's superficial, but I think we're all a bit superficial when it comes to dating," Pellegrino said.
I guess to some looks really are all that matter. Now granted I too have seen some pretty unattractive people in my online dating exploits but to have an online dating sight that is solely based on looks feels like discrimination mixed with narcissism to me. Never mind that a beautiful woman may have the attention span of a goldfish or a handsome guy may be cruel and enjoy kicking dogs across the room... as long as they are good looking who cares.
Ok so maybe I am still a little bitter that there persists this "pretty people" population who think that they can perpetuate their species beyond the doors of high school thus continuing to condemn and judge the world of average looking beauties not pretty enough for them...
Granted I wouldn't want to be with someone who looks like Attila the Hun or the Elephant man.
I think it might be better to have a dating website called justnormal.com.
In which only normal people are admitted. Those with social disorders such as fear of commitment or fear of having children need not apply nor should those who are afraid to leave their house or who have piles of newspapers and beer cans lining their walls. And to protect the guys from women running around like loose emotional canons, women would be blocked from participating during PMS... its just safer for everyone that way!
I guess it is just indicative of a world that centers on "me" and what "I" want versus being open to what God wants... or being open to God at all.
It's a shallow world full of shallow godless people and it just becomes more and more evident in the dating world everyday. However, at the same time I am becoming more and more convinced that those who seek God can rest assured that He has a plan to bring people together whether He chooses to use the online dating site you've signed up with or not is entirely up to Him.
Hotenough.com ... how about justnormal.com ?
This might be why the world is amuck... or more likely just a symptom of a world in a muck.
The article says:
"HotEnough.org is for "fit, good-looking" people. Prospective members must submit pictures and must be rated an 8 or higher by people already in the club." "The 33-year-old said he and his partner, Sean Cohen, created the site after concluding that Internet dating sites attract a lot of brave and desperate people but not particularly attractive ones." "Candidates must send in three pictures, including one full-body shot. Active members rate the pictures online without knowing anything else about the people in them." "People can say that the site is shallow, they can say it's superficial, but I think we're all a bit superficial when it comes to dating," Pellegrino said.
I guess to some looks really are all that matter. Now granted I too have seen some pretty unattractive people in my online dating exploits but to have an online dating sight that is solely based on looks feels like discrimination mixed with narcissism to me. Never mind that a beautiful woman may have the attention span of a goldfish or a handsome guy may be cruel and enjoy kicking dogs across the room... as long as they are good looking who cares.
Ok so maybe I am still a little bitter that there persists this "pretty people" population who think that they can perpetuate their species beyond the doors of high school thus continuing to condemn and judge the world of average looking beauties not pretty enough for them...
Granted I wouldn't want to be with someone who looks like Attila the Hun or the Elephant man.
I think it might be better to have a dating website called justnormal.com.
In which only normal people are admitted. Those with social disorders such as fear of commitment or fear of having children need not apply nor should those who are afraid to leave their house or who have piles of newspapers and beer cans lining their walls. And to protect the guys from women running around like loose emotional canons, women would be blocked from participating during PMS... its just safer for everyone that way!
I guess it is just indicative of a world that centers on "me" and what "I" want versus being open to what God wants... or being open to God at all.
It's a shallow world full of shallow godless people and it just becomes more and more evident in the dating world everyday. However, at the same time I am becoming more and more convinced that those who seek God can rest assured that He has a plan to bring people together whether He chooses to use the online dating site you've signed up with or not is entirely up to Him.
Friday, March 16, 2007
The Symbolism Behind Car Accidents
As a writer I look for symbolism in life. There is symbolism in car accidents that warrant some exploration or discussion.
In 2001, I was in accident but I saw him coming and all I could do was try and get out of the way. I went up a curb and he still hit me. Providentially, a tree was cut down 3 weeks earlier so I would have a clear place to drive my car rather than wrapping it around a tree AND getting hit by an uninsured driver with a suspended license!
Compare that to last month, where I didn't know what was happening until after it happened. There was no warning. There was no screaming at the deranged driver hoping that would change what was about to happen. There was no chance to try and get out of the way.
I think of where I was in 2001 and where I am in 2007. In 2001, I was dating someone who just wasn't the right one for me. I knew this and I ignored it as long as I could because sometimes its just easier to be with someone even if they aren't the right someone! But after the accident, I realized that I had to get off that road! I needed to make a drastic turn and I did that when I saw behavior in him that couldn't go unmentioned. Mentioning it brought out even worse behavior and so there was no turning back. I got off the road. I still got "hit" but it could have been worse.
On the day of the 2007 accident, something monumental happened earlier in the day. Some of you who will read this will know what I am talking about. For the rest of you, just know that when Jesus says you will know the truth and the truth will set you free he wasn't kidding. Compound this monumental event with the life of a single working woman who who has been in a rut for so long because of God's silence and who wrestles with God because he keeps her still single. I knew I needed something dramatic to happen; things couldn't go on like this. And there wasn't anything I could do -like break up with a boyfriend- to change things. I needed a jolt! I got just that. And I just can't go back to the way things were and had been. The jolt made sure of that it. Its like the truth came out and the jolt shut down the road I was on for good.
In 2001, I needed to get off the road and I did. In 2007, the jolt helped get me out of the rut I was in. When truth sets you free you just can't go back to living among lies again or lack of information. I think for me, the car accident jolted this deep into my soul. And I thank God for the jolt.
In 2001, I was in accident but I saw him coming and all I could do was try and get out of the way. I went up a curb and he still hit me. Providentially, a tree was cut down 3 weeks earlier so I would have a clear place to drive my car rather than wrapping it around a tree AND getting hit by an uninsured driver with a suspended license!
Compare that to last month, where I didn't know what was happening until after it happened. There was no warning. There was no screaming at the deranged driver hoping that would change what was about to happen. There was no chance to try and get out of the way.
I think of where I was in 2001 and where I am in 2007. In 2001, I was dating someone who just wasn't the right one for me. I knew this and I ignored it as long as I could because sometimes its just easier to be with someone even if they aren't the right someone! But after the accident, I realized that I had to get off that road! I needed to make a drastic turn and I did that when I saw behavior in him that couldn't go unmentioned. Mentioning it brought out even worse behavior and so there was no turning back. I got off the road. I still got "hit" but it could have been worse.
On the day of the 2007 accident, something monumental happened earlier in the day. Some of you who will read this will know what I am talking about. For the rest of you, just know that when Jesus says you will know the truth and the truth will set you free he wasn't kidding. Compound this monumental event with the life of a single working woman who who has been in a rut for so long because of God's silence and who wrestles with God because he keeps her still single. I knew I needed something dramatic to happen; things couldn't go on like this. And there wasn't anything I could do -like break up with a boyfriend- to change things. I needed a jolt! I got just that. And I just can't go back to the way things were and had been. The jolt made sure of that it. Its like the truth came out and the jolt shut down the road I was on for good.
In 2001, I needed to get off the road and I did. In 2007, the jolt helped get me out of the rut I was in. When truth sets you free you just can't go back to living among lies again or lack of information. I think for me, the car accident jolted this deep into my soul. And I thank God for the jolt.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Blurred Beauty
I had this dream last night that I was at my friend Scott's new apartment. And when I looked out his windows I saw great big castles on little islands in the river. They were beautiful but he was up so high that it appeared like everything around me was moving and swaying. So I couldn't even enjoy the view. I had to look away because it was making me sick to my stomach.
After a day of pondering this dream, I think the interpretation is something like this... the circumstances in life are keeping me from seeing the beauty that is all around me. So I can either look and steel myself until I don't feel as affected by the movement of circumstances or I can continue to look away and not see the beauty all around... even the beauty in the circumstances.
After a day of pondering this dream, I think the interpretation is something like this... the circumstances in life are keeping me from seeing the beauty that is all around me. So I can either look and steel myself until I don't feel as affected by the movement of circumstances or I can continue to look away and not see the beauty all around... even the beauty in the circumstances.
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